My sister Cyndi killed herself in an episode of Bipolar Disorderr - Suicide Part 1

My wife Robyn came to me in my office,while I was writing a blog.
 She said, "you have to see this." She pressed rewind, on the remote.
  I stood watching, the subject was suicide, and the news anchor was
 saying, that the  rate of suicides, from the year two thousand  had gone
 up thirty five percent. I quit working on my blog. and  started a new one.
 One which would help the suicide rate go down.

My wife Robyn and I wrote a book called;, Broken Minds, Hope for Healing When You Feel Like You're Like You're Losing It  (Kregel Publications2005). Our longest chapter is about suicide. My older sister Cyndi Liked  the book so much, that she ordered fifteen copies, and gave them away to her friends and relatives.

 We were stunned,when my  brother -in-law, called us in the early morning, and told us,that Cyndi  had killed herself.  I had to drive to my parent's house, and tell them about her death. 

She left behind three children, who were  under the age of 15. About ten years later, one of my best friends, who was a pastor. took his own life. He was on our board, and had been to many of our seminars. He left behind a wife and five children.

 Many times, even at the funerals of those who have committed suicide, the  pastor does not mention it. But surely this is a mistake on his part.  Here is an excerpt from Broken Minds ;Cyndi had welcomed the book,  and ordered about fifteen copies of it for her friends.

Ssuicide.

It had never before entered my mind. Suicide claimed weak people—surely far weaker than I, people. who came to their wits’ end .and gave in to a sudden fatal impulse. How could a Christi entertain the thought, let alone be seriously tempted?

Perhaps the temptation might overtake someone in an impossible home situation or ,someone whose business had gone sour. In my mind maybe a weak Christian might do it to avoid going through divorce, terminal illness, poverty, or an intensely bitter disappointment.

But Christians,who had thoughts of suicide were among the “weak minded” and stunted spiritually. Suddenly the temptation to end my life and its pain assaulted my theology-driven abhorrence against murder of a being created by God in His image. 

We must not be “ignorant of [Satan’s] devices” (2 Cor. 2:11 kjv). One of Satan’s most cunning devices is to whisper to the depressed believer,  the thought that all the pain could stop in a moment. He will insinuate that there is  a fix, for all that is broken.You  could have it right now. the  wanted rest from the unrelenting pain. It is immediate. 

The Devil is crafty. One moment he’s a quiet serpent sunning in the grass, the next he is a roaring lion. Jesus Christ said;  that, Satan “was a murderer from the beginning, and does not stand in the truth because there is no truth in him." Whenever he speaks a lie, he speaks from his own nature, for he is a liar, and the father of lies” (John 8:44)." Murderer Satan surely delights to lure Christians to physical death, since he cannot touch their souls.

The rationalist finds it silly superstition to speak of attacks from the spiritual realm. That, of course, doesn’t stop Satan from attacking the rationalist, but rationalism has no lens through which to see him ,and unmask his intentions. Christians have the lens of Scripture. We can see and know the attacks for what they are. That doesn’t make their allure any less potent, but there is an ever-present help in the Holy Spirit.

Don['t believe that others would not mind that you killed yourself.. Suicide is always a horrible act ,which rips family's apart, and the children of suicide are more likely to kill themselves. There is hope,, you can get through this episode. You must make sure your armor is on (Ephesians 6).

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