Depressed, the devil wants you dead!

I will share what I felt when I was twenty nine years old, dealing with my first episode of depression. Looking back I have been able to better conceptualize demonic devices.
I began to feel like I had the flu, my mood went from moderate to bad to severe in a short time. I was in the dark, emotionally and spiritually and I did not have a clue that what I had was a biological problem. My doctor told me that it when I felt stressed to blow into a paper bag. One time when I was at a restaurant and depressed out of my mind I asked to be excused. I went into a bathroom, in the stall, blowing furiously but it did nothing to lift my mood. I thought, “How pathetic is this?”

At a certain point, suicide became a viable option as a way of escape. I remember thinking, while out to eat with my family, “I will go outside and jump in front of a car.” Then, I would not have to deal with this horrible agony.

I was sure that I was a terrible burden to everyone. Now I realize that this is a common scheme of the devil, (the Greek word for devil, diabolos means slanderer) to isolate the believer in Christ, slander God to him, saying, “He does not care about you anymore.” He will add insult to your own feelings of failure and your self-loathing. He will attempt to cover the biological nature of your depression and put on a masquerade that your problem is spiritual, Jesus Christ, who is God, said about him, “You belong to your father, the devil, and you want to carry out your father's desire. He was a murderer from the beginning, not holding to the truth, for there is no truth in him. When he lies, he speaks his native language, for he is a liar and the father of lies” (John 8:44)

If you asked most people who are depressed and suicidal, “Why do you want to kill yourself?” Most would say that their families would be better off if they were dead.
However, no matter who you are and what you have done; your family will never be better without you. They will feel sorrow, betrayal, anger, abandonment and confusion. Their grieving will be long and hard. Statistics tell us that numbers of your own family, (including nieces and nephews) will adopt for themselves your way of getting rid of the awful pain. Suicide will seem logical. Suicide is a sin, but God will provide you a way of escape that you may bear it, “No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it” (I Corinthians 10:13).


Do not commit suicide! Get help! This was taken from, CAMI Leader,s Guide and Broken Minds Hope for Healing When You Feel Like You’re Losing It, Kregel Publications where the largest chapter is about suicide (chapter 4).
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